“Will you stop walking away!?” he yelled in frustration, “Don’t you think you deserve to be happy? We’ve known each other for as long as you have been alive; we’re family. I’ve seen you at your lowest of lows, but I haven’t seen you truly happy in over a year! I saw you talking to that girl earlier, what’s her name? It doesn’t matter…”
“Her name was Krista.” I said under my breath.
“…Okay, Krista, she was gorgeous, and do not tell me you weren’t having a good time talking to her. I could see that from across the room! I realize what Emma put you through was hell, but come on! How can you ever move on if you don’t let yourself?”
“Don’t you get it!?” I snapped back, “Emma put me through hell because I pushed her! I made mistakes! I made so many mistakes. I wasn’t there when she needed me to be, I wasn’t who she needed me to be. If I did that with someone I loved that much, who is to say I wouldn’t do it again with a complete stranger!? With everything that I’ve done, the truth is, I just don’t deserve to be happy.”
“I… I didn’t realize you thought that way. I had no idea that’s what was holding you back. Listen, you can’t keep blaming yourself. You are one of the best people I know. Honestly, Emma didn’t need to put you through what she put you through either. If you can’t see that now, then I hope you realize it soon, because I can’t keep seeing you like this. You really do deserve to be happy. I have no idea what those “mistakes” were you made, but whether you actually made them or not, that is far from what defines you. Your mistakes are not your personality; they are not who you are.”